The Return to Christ’s Table

For many years I travelled and worked and followed the New Age teachings that had transformed my life. When I lost everything I had worked for I asked God and Christ Jesus to forgive me and that I wished to serve them after a sarcastic woman said, “All you have is God.” She wasn’t saying this for my comfort. She loved the fact I had been sliced to pieces. I then reached for God’s Word and found the peace and strength to heal from all those New Age people who had deserted, betrayed, and hurt me. When I was fountain of money and property, I had meant something to them.

The Bible brought me wisdom, comfort, healing, and peace. It was not easy at first. I had always been attracted to the Bible, but I had always lived in a state of sin. I had lived with men and slept around as an adult thinking that was the normal way to live in modern society. I didn’t see or didn’t wish to see that it wasn’t the way God wanted me to live my life. I did what felt good sexually, never finding love or happiness or the solid man I thought I could find. You see, I had left my heavenly father out of the equation. When I had seen a local sermon on television one morning, I was reminded: God, first. Family, second. Everything else, third.

I read and honestly prayed, not knowing what I was praying for. I cried a lot, not knowing if I would ever heal from another series of losses which made me joke, I know how Job feels. I know how Joseph feels in the pit. I kept reading and I asked God for direction asking him for refuge and faith. Answers did not come quickly or easily. I had never been this deeply wounded or betrayed. My father had finally said, “Joan, people are funny. They change and put themselves first.” I had never gotten that lesson until now. I realized I could only rely on God and Jesus Christ. They didn’t shift their love and affection or they weren’t supposed to. I didn’t understand why bad things kept happening to me. All I could do was read the Word and pray that the holes in my heart could be healed. I FINALLY LEARNED IN MY STUDIES THAT GOD DIDN’T CAUSE BAD THINGS TO HAPPEN TO US, ALTHOUGH SATAN WANTS US TO BELIEVE THIS LIE. GOD HAS NEVER BEEN THE ENEMY! GOD IS THE ONE WHO LOVES US MOST.

No matter where you are or where you wind up, God is with you. Jesus always comes to intercede and the Holy Spirit will come when you ask Jehovah in sincere prayer.